fallen

i didn’t want a war. i want more peace. the more i press for peace, my love song became sirens. lullabies unheard, your voice was lost to me when the sun set, when i longed for your words most. your love met me from far away i wanted you close, a longing for myself maybe … More fallen

in a wonder

the purple hue melts over my skin rising smoke from my fingertips your scent lingers on me. you bring so much light, i work in the shadows. little things, like the third bottle of wine being the right one. it’s like i am thrilled, and calmed at the same time. when you’re introspective, it’s an … More in a wonder

real.

this is what i do. 5:44AM, shivering in my living room, lights on. obnoxiously. i want him to know, even subconsciously. i can’t fight, there’s no true battle there, just masks of armor on a dumb little brain, protecting a lost heart, living a ritual of confidence, i probably spend more time in angst, when … More real.

power purchase.

Can we be bought with money? How hard is it to actually buy someone? People pay their attention for free sometimes. If someone gives us what we want, do we give them us? How can someone purchase our time? To be kept like a pet in the house, accessible, perceivably free, yet dependent upon the … More power purchase.

Cowards

I used to be one too, a coward, hovering with the safety of games, playing with hearts, and breaking them all. The more I broke, the more powerful I felt. Most people play games, they’re narcissists, they provoke ambivalence…when you show affection, they back away. When you pull away, they come along. These people don’t … More Cowards

Reward

  Venus loves to hear the song of her beauty, echoing her orbits, shining back to her in reflection…she is vain and proud, and must be lived, loudly, boldly. Gold is not mute. Gold shines. Gold reflects. Gold has structure and melts with the right temperature. Maybe you triggered the right heat within me, and … More Reward

whatever.

Have you ever felt that gut-wrenching dismay at feeling the urge for love, for fire to burn, and you are not sure how to make the fire? You want to love so hard, so freely, so powerfully, yet do not know what to do to make that love flow. My life has been this feeling, … More whatever.

Don’t Be Fooled

There is a sweet soliloquy that emerges from a beautiful form, like an encompassing aura that lures us in….like a trap. The “beauty trap” is getting absorbed into someone else’s vain aura, where they place their mental energies into the power and impact of their physical beauties on their environments, other people, and to themselves. … More Don’t Be Fooled